Un-understood value

I struggle with understanding what value God attaches to me.I think i understand but when i stop to reflect i see that my conceptualisation falls far short of comprehending who exactly i am in Jesus Christ.David gave it a shot.Psalm 8:3,4 "What is man that you are mindful of him."I remember thinking about this text when i was about 11 years old.What makes me so important that you even are concerned about me.Who am i?What am i?Can any one out there break it down to me.David made a comparison with the works of creation that a grand and mighty God made.He looks at the sky and sees the vast expanse of what God had made and amazingly wonders ,wow,what am i that you even bother to visit me!You stoop down to look for me.The God of the universe.The master of the universe.Creator God.Who am I?It is now 22 years down the line and here i am writing to you all.I have gotten to know more of the world,i have made a lot of mistakes.But guess what?I have time and again been rescued by God.He has proved himself to be even more mindful of me as the years roll by.You know what? It has left me with an even bigger,"Who am I?" Where am i getting to with this rounded and winding writing.The point is i cant figure out the love of God.Who can?I grew up in quite a structured way.Very religious,but when i look back i ask my self.I had lots of good exteriors and my life went like a swiss watch.'A" student.Good at sports.Got great jobs.Got married.Why would God not want to hang out with a not so bad chap like me?Thats where my Lord Jesus had to open my eyes.I had one nagging sin.You know the one that easily besets us.It grew into a monster and leveled me to the ground.I was left alone,no high flying job,no wife.Just me and my stinking sin and Jesus next to me.I had exterior goodness, but had a huge struggle inside me.I was listening to Dwight Nelson today and he called it Al Qaeda.Internal self terrorism.I terrorised my self and did stuff i thought,in the midst of tears,why did i do that?I would wail bitterly oh God,Lord Jesus i cant do it,i am a no good.I need you to change me.Jesus came and kept on seeking me.I had gotten to the point of getting an understanding of what i mean to Him.He kept my evils a secret,forgave my sins and told me He loves me!Who am i?Oh good news to reflect on,i am his dear child.Created and redeemed.Romans 8:15,i have been given a sprit of adoption.I can say Daddy "Abba" "papa" to the Master of the universe.He loves me because i am his very son,His child.Not just that i am a co-heir with Jesus Christ.Do you know what that means?I am royal and eligible to being on the throne God has given and Jesus has made a reality through his death on the cross,i was supposed to die on to pay for the sins that He forgives me of.Oh such love!I cant figure it out.One thing that i know is that i cant do anything else but melt in my insides and say I love you Jesus.Work inside of my heart.Because i cant make my self right.All i can do is love you! And guess what?Even if He did not make me royal.I would still love Him all the same.Who can put a value to such love? Who can resist such great love?I cant!Neither can i figure it out. One song my Dad taught me and my brother when we were little.I only got to know the meaning 30 years later.It goes,"Oh friend do you love Jesus?Oh yes i love Jesus!Are you sure you love Jesus?Yes i am sure i love Jesus.Tell me why do you love Jesus?Because he first loved me!Thats the reason we all ought to love Him.Oh how i love Jesus!" I cant figure out my value,for God in Jesus to be willing to die for me!This i know and may never ever fully comprehend.He first loved me!